You were wrong, I was right, You said goodbye, I said goodnight.

I just want to update the world on how I feel today. I had a talk with my friend last night about how I felt about the way things went down versus how she felt about being a blog subject. I got an honest answer. Definitely not an answer that I wanted to hear in any way. But I got an honest answer. And honestly, even though I got little sleep last night and heard very little in the way of "wanting to hear", I feel great. Why's that? Because THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!

Obviously, this is a common theme with how I've lived my life thus far. I don't like lies. But even though I would much rather have heard the opposite of what I did hear, I'm SO glad that I heard the truth. I already feel better about myself and growth opportunities that I will have. My life just all of a sudden doesn't seem so bad. Because someone I think that I know pretty well and knows me pretty well, told me the truth. That is my challenge to you. Be honest. Do not try to protect someone's feelings because you think they can't take it, or you think that they might get hurt. Do it because it needs to be done. Give yourself the courage to do this. I promise you, from this example and countless others. The TRUTH will set you free. Not partial truth or mostly truth. The absolute truth will set you free.

I feel a million times better after only a day. Father, I pray for all the people in my life that need you more than I do. I pray that today, this semester, this year, that things go better for all of us. Because I love them, you love them, and you love me too.

God Bless you All. Thanks for reading. Feedback always appreciated.

Nick

Am I Crazy For Lovin' You?

The answer to the above question is yes. I am an idiot. I ACTUALLY believed you might have meant what you said. But of course I was wrong. I'm never wrong about anything in my life and I picked this one. Awesome. Well of course thanks. For nothing. I've been in situations before when I had to choose and I had to deliberate and decide between women, or other things. I'm really bad with decisions and usually, they all die. They fade. They leave before a decision is made. And I'm left....alone. But I was proud of myself. I had a decision made. And guess what? You reminded me why I was the way I was.

"People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated"- (500) Days of Summer

I wasn't sure that I agreed with the above statement at first. But I realize now that loneliness might be the life for me. I can do whatever I want. I'm bound by no one's schedule but mine, and the most important thing about loneliness- You don't get un-hurt just to get hurt again.

"Well, you know, Henry Miller said the best way to get over a woman is to turn her into literature"- (500) Days of Summer

I don't know if a blog is literature. But it's helping.

My faith, God, is struggling along. I know that you are there and that you are real, and that you have purpose for me. I learned that in my darkest hour. But what I don't understand is why my life has felt the same for so long. If there is a map, why am I driving in circles? My prayer today is that you show me. I don't ask to see the whole plan. I know that's impossible. Maybe just....the next step? I'm always in prayer for my friends, Lord. Especially the ones who have it all together. I'm so afraid that I will get depressed and turn to things that I don't need in my life. That you want me to turn away from. Father guide me back. I am willing.


Thanks for reading. If you're going to post negativity just don't. If you have a problem talk to me about it, posting comments is not the way to do it. I love you all and if you have anything to say to me I encourage it. I just don't think you ought to post it here. Again, I LOVE YOU.

Nick

Question for the day...

Why does the world frown so much upon honesty? Wouldn't you like to just march up to someone and tell them that you think they're pretty? Or that they're cute? or that you've been in love with them for years? Or that they did a good job in that thing you saw them in? What prevents us, as humans, from doing this?

My answer: Fear of rejection. I fear that people that I think are pretty won't think that I'm pretty.

Your answer:  ?

GO!