My summer (thus far) has been crazy. Some good, some bad. It's been a whirlwind and it's all starting to bog me down. Wanna hear about it? If you don't, stop reading! Fair warning...
So I started a killer-awesome internship with the IRT, got cast in two shows, and got reunited with my friends. Sounds like a great summer, right?
Those parts were. But little by little I start to feel edged out by my friends (not being able to hang out during the week does this to you) and the further I go on the less I feel like I am a part of the group.
Then, I get news that one of my best friends isn't coming back to school in the fall. I feel like...well....like I've lost my best friend.
The Reds traded Jonny Gomes (my favorite player) and aren't doing so hot lately. (Ok, I know that this one sounds silly, but I have a previous blog about how I escape into sports, and when I can't do that...)
A whirlwind of a crush makes me feel like my love life could never be under control.
There are plenty of things that happened that I won't mention. But, I can tell you, I've never had to work this hard to be happy. (or been this good at faking how I really feel)
Here is my prayer for today.
God,
Please bring my friends back to me. Show me back to you and to the life I should be living, and I know that everything will fall into place. I know that it will not be perfect but when I am back into your will for my life I will know. Help me to not be selfish in wanting my friends love or attention, or in putting my own life ahead of the ones I care about. Forgive me of my sins. I want you to take them away so that I don't feel burdened by them anymore. Please provide for me in Nashville. I can see you working on my relationships with people there to help fill the void. Help me to show the ones I love that I love them, and help me to feel like your child again.
-N
Thanks so much for reading if you did. I love you all and would love to be in deeper relationships with all of you if you would like :)
PS. On the bright side, I did get a lot of good playwriting material from this summer.
