My summer (thus far) has been crazy. Some good, some bad. It's been a whirlwind and it's all starting to bog me down. Wanna hear about it? If you don't, stop reading! Fair warning...
So I started a killer-awesome internship with the IRT, got cast in two shows, and got reunited with my friends. Sounds like a great summer, right?
Those parts were. But little by little I start to feel edged out by my friends (not being able to hang out during the week does this to you) and the further I go on the less I feel like I am a part of the group.
Then, I get news that one of my best friends isn't coming back to school in the fall. I feel like...well....like I've lost my best friend.
The Reds traded Jonny Gomes (my favorite player) and aren't doing so hot lately. (Ok, I know that this one sounds silly, but I have a previous blog about how I escape into sports, and when I can't do that...)
A whirlwind of a crush makes me feel like my love life could never be under control.
There are plenty of things that happened that I won't mention. But, I can tell you, I've never had to work this hard to be happy. (or been this good at faking how I really feel)
Here is my prayer for today.
God,
Please bring my friends back to me. Show me back to you and to the life I should be living, and I know that everything will fall into place. I know that it will not be perfect but when I am back into your will for my life I will know. Help me to not be selfish in wanting my friends love or attention, or in putting my own life ahead of the ones I care about. Forgive me of my sins. I want you to take them away so that I don't feel burdened by them anymore. Please provide for me in Nashville. I can see you working on my relationships with people there to help fill the void. Help me to show the ones I love that I love them, and help me to feel like your child again.
-N
Thanks so much for reading if you did. I love you all and would love to be in deeper relationships with all of you if you would like :)
PS. On the bright side, I did get a lot of good playwriting material from this summer.
You know my door is always open. Unfortunately, that door is far too far away for my liking.
ReplyDeleteI can't say it will get any better after school to be honest. I come home to an empty apartment everyday of the week, so I certainly know how you feel. (Other than the wonderful occasions people go crazy and think the drive out to see me is worth it haha :D )
You know damn well I'm here if you ever need me, and that will *NEVER* change.
Past that, I'm afraid I don't have much to offer you at this point in time. :(
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