Hello Internet. It's been awhile.
I feel pretty good about a few things in my life, like my girl is amazing. She's my best friend and I love how happy she makes me and how happy I seem to make her.
I'm working back at K-mart, but that has brought my confidence back. My confidence is delicate, but by and large, working at K-mart has put me back on the "find a good job for my future" course.
But here is my problem:
Everything I was passionate about months ago has fallen away. I'm in a show right now but it's difficult for me to connect to the material, and it's been a rough-going production for the cast and the director thus far, though things are finally looking up.
Also, I'm selling out and finding a big-boy job, because I want to have money to have a decent life for myself.
I have been telling people in job interviews that I am a people person, but I'm starting to think that's not true anymore. I used to take pride in my relationships because I put so much work into them and I had lots of friends that I cared about and cared about me.
But...living away from them is teaching me that...well...that I was wrong. It's so hard to think that people who were such a huge part of my life now barely talk to me. I can name 3 people from Nashville/Lipscomb that have contacted me first in the last three weeks. I'm not even that far away from them...should things really be this difficult?
My prayer today is that I make the most of my situation. Obviously, God knows what he is doing. But I long for the brotherhood (and sisterhood) that I once had. My prayer is that God takes control of my life and helps me not to need those things I once relied on. I pray that he gives me strength in all that I do, and keeps me forward on the path he wants for me.
Prayers and Comments are always appreciated and encouraged.
NAH
