The time has come, the walrus said...

Somethings really been troubling me lately, and I had no better way to say it long-form than in this blog, so here goes:

I'm sorry. I've been griping and putting political posts out there way too much. It's not like me, really. I'm afraid its because I honestly have nothing better to spend my time doing. When I was in school I was able to be in plays or doing other things, but now I just have work, and getting angry about things. I need to find an outlet. And for this, I am truly sorry. I think what I think but I'm sorry for shoving onto your Facebook and Twitter feeds. I've been un-followed and un-friended enough for one election cycle.

For the record, as far as legality goes, I believe in equality for all and I am pro-life. I won't argue with anyone about this anymore. That's how I feel, you feel differently. You won't change my mind and I won't change yours.

I won't argue with you about it, but I will defend my side of it. That's often what I see myself doing. Defending the other side that I don't feel has been given a fair shake. I'm mostly not a fan of "you're wrong, I'm right" attitudes, and if you think that I feel that way, I don't. In fact, I HOPE that America is correct in choosing Obama for our economy. My OPINION is different. I have been arguing, too. I won't deny that, but I am competitive in nature, and that's the only explanation I have for it. Every time I think to myself "Self, you shouldn't do this"  but I do it anyway.

But here is some food for thought. Remember three paragraphs ago when I said I've lost enough friends and followers? It's true. I've honestly had to overcome that sick feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when you're torn just to post that stuff. I don't want to lose friends but I feel like something needs to be said. No longer do I feel that way. But it goes both ways. I'm tired of hearing insults flung and sarcasm used in everything people say. I talked with someone today who told me that she agreed with everything I had said, but was afraid to even "like" my post or comment in agreement, because she might face attack and ridicule from her "friends" who believed differently than she. I for one, find this intolerable. Yes. This is a true story. PEOPLE SHOULD NOT LIVE IN FEAR OF THAT. EQUAL RIGHTS SHOULD INCLUDE RIGHTS TO BE ANNOYING ON FACEBOOK EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE.

Anyway, I'm sorry. Sorry for stepping on your toes, or being rude, or starting arguments. I can assure you, most arguments with my Facebook or Twitter friends are not fun for me. It goes against every instinct that I have and I don't want to do it anymore. But, if you're asking for my apology for standing up for what I believe in, and standing up to sarcasm and ridicule of what I believe, I won't do that.

I'm willing to do my part to repair any relationship I have broken. I'd like to actually have some friends that I have decent conversations with. I don't have too many of those other than my brother and fiancee, currently. I never let someone's views get in the way of me caring for them and loving them, and I don't think you should either, but I can't tell you what to do. :)

Well.

I feel a lot better now that it's out of my system. I hope that your eyes are opened to my inner torment over all of this. I can't shake off losing a single friend. I take every un-follow and de-friend personally. I know I've done some un-friending recently too, and I honestly can't say it was warranted, either. I've had a lot of anger for a long time. I'm working on it.

I hope you'll accept this as my apology, friends. Even if we're not "Facebook official" or you don't follow me on twitter, I still consider you a friend. I care about you and I hope that things are going well for you. If there's anything I can do for you, please let me know! Share this with your friends who you know have deleted me from their lives. I won't add them back but will gladly welcome anyone back into my life.

Thanks for listening, and reading, and please share your thoughts with me, good or bad. And pray for me, if you should feel so inclined. Also, pray for my dear friend CJ, who has gone through much worse this week.

Thanks. God Bless.

NAH