I have a lot of things running through my head right now. I am in prayer for all of my friends that need it. I know that they need it more than me, so I'm doing the best I can.
But I did one selfish thing this week. I dropped Jazz Band. Actually, I washed my hands of the Lipscomb Music Department. You wanna know why? ASK ME! But this is my blog so I'll tell you anyway: I was only in it for the money, and my dad told me that the money was not worth the stress it was causing me. He asked if I liked it, I said "No". So my folks talked about it and they let me drop. What you need to understand about it is that my folks are the only reason I was doing band. I wanted to help them out with my scholarship. When that became less important, I have no good reason to stay in band. I really don't have a reason to feel guilty, but for some reason people being mad at me is making me feel bad.
Here's the burning topic for the week. Lying.
Have you ever just been able to tell when someone is lying? I always have. This week, I am 95% certain that someone I really care about lied to me. I wish she had told me the truth. Maybe I just don't believe her because it hurt. But if it was going to hurt anyway, why not just use the truth? I've always been bad at this and making enemies because I refuse to lie. After all this time, do I really deserve to be lied to? Maybe I do. I dunno.
Sorry for all these unnecessary rants. This is my blog and some of this stuff just shouldn't be holed up inside. I'm having a hard time lately. I'll keep praying. Praying that I find a job this summer, that God launches me into a career, that God takes care of the people I love and that he will bless my life. And I'll pray for you too, if you need it. I love you all, and please comment or talk to me somehow. Facebook me. Text me. Let's be better friends. :)
God Bless,
Nick
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